I'm feeling trapped. I have so many things I want to write down here but don't feel like I'm able to because I want to write about difficulties I've been having with a person who read, and might still read, this blog. I don't want to have to create a new blog again just because of this.
I've got so much weighing on me and no way to get it out at the moment, and it feels like there's a huge knot in my chest because of this situation. I just want to get it out of my head and write it down here in order to process it properly.
So I haven't written here in a long time for fear that the person I've been having problems with will read it, and either bad-mouth me to friends for writing about them online, or send me passive-aggressive messages filled with conflict and guilt-tripping. I just can't win.
I don't want to tell this to people face to face because I don't like spreading gossip, and I probably wouldn't be very good about keeping the person's identity private during a conversation. I know that the person in question has shown people all of our correspondence and has talked about me, but I don't want to be the sort of person who does that. I want people to be able to trust me with things.
God I hate drama.
