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Since the drama with my parents' company I've been seriously low. Every moment I'm on my own I immediately stay crying, and being alone especially at night feels very scary. My dreams have become more and more painful and upsetting, and I'm scared to go to sleep. I feel like I'll never get over this, and have completely lost the ability to function properly. I either keep myself busy the whole time and pretend nothing's wrong but break down every second I'm alone or not distracted, or I'm completely overwhelmed by the depression and anxiety. Every time I look at my phone in terrified it'll be my parents telling me again what a let down I am, or that they're firing me or disowning me, which leads onto all the worries about sorting out benefits etc and all the stress related to that and job hunting etc when I really feel like I just can't do any of that at the moment. I can't do anything, everything is just too much to cope with. I feel like I'm losing control, like I'm on the verge of some sort of breakdown.