Faking it?

I don't really know what I feel anymore. I feel like I probably recovered from depression and now am just being pathetic and lazy and flakey and letting people down. I'm not suicidal atm, just apathetic and tired all the time, and lacking in motivation or purpose. I want to be able to make myself leave the house, but there's no reason to, no point - I don't have Dorian to walk anymore, and I don't care enough about anything else for it to feel important, even though I know there are things I should care about and want to try to get done, but I just don't give a shit about any of them. I feel like a fraud, and need to just pull myself together and stop being so useless and pathetic. I also just feel like crying all the time for no reason. Ugh. I'm so completely useless.