ALL the emotions!

Recently I've been really struggling to wake up. Every time my alarm goes off, I can feel sleep trying to drag me back into its comforting clutches. I snooze my alarm a few times, maybe reset it for half-an-hour later, thinking that after a little more sleep I'll feel awake enough to get up, but this never happens. The only thing that'll make me get out of bed is having a pre-arranged appointment of activity booked, and even then I'll leave it 'til the last possible minute to get out of bed. 

This happened again this morning, with the added lovely gift of my brain reminding me of my dreams, which were rather upsetting.

I finally managed to claw my way into consciousness and get out of the door to go to my yoga class. For the first half of the class, I was able to stay focussed and distracted by what I was doing, but part-way through, I was hit with the force of all the emotions at once. I managed to force myself to keep going, while silently shaking and crying for no apparent reason. It turns out it's very hard to perform yoga whilst crying! 

It took all my effort to make myself get showered and dressed after the session, rather than just curling up and crying in the changing room. I got myself home and collapsed onto the sofa with a hot drink and TV episode for distraction. Now that's finished, the emotions are making themselves felt again with gusto. I have no idea why I'm feeling this way today, but I can't stop crying. Everything just seems overwhelming and too much, and all I want is to go back to bed and slip back into sleep, where I don't have to be conscious or feel anything.